|The burning of old grass has a good purpose to help the new growth.|
This past week I have looked at this with new eyes I thought i was a worker bee for what other people put together but I have realized that I love to come up with new ideas but I am not an organized person that can make the ideas come to play. The other night my husband and I sat at our friend's table and told them a few ideas I had that I would love to see happen in our community. This is great I love coming up with Ideas and I love seeing them happen but to organize them into play is not a gift I have been blessed with.
I am to come up with the idea lay out how I think it could work but to make all the details come togeather that is not the person God created me to be. I need to look around and pray that God will make the details come togeather through others. If it is something more than picking up pizza and dropping them off I am overwhelmed just like I am supposed to make a meal for 60 people in our church tonight and here I am sitting at my computer telling you about how this scares the daylights out of me because I am not good at making it all come togeather. Tonight I will grab a few bags of salad and serve brownies my daughter made with a few pans of baked spaghetti or Chicken pot pie simple most would say but that's about as elegant as I get. The sound of blessing our AWANA families always sounds good but it is not one of my talents that are for sure.
I want to see many outreaches happen through our church but I am not able yet to know how to take something from my mind and make it into a reality. How do we teach our kids to do these things if we first are not willing to step up and show them well I realized early on that because of circumstances I was not shown how to do many things my family was way too busy for my mom to have me come along side her to learn the skill of how she organized her gatherings and parties for family and friends. My goal is to become that mom but I struggle with the idea of how when it is not a skill I can fathom myself.
Other have often told me you have a great passion for what is in your heart you just need to see it through. At 34 years old I want others to know that those of us that have very creative passions sometimes fail to follow through because of the way our minds are wired to be creative we lack the organization skills and the wiring just don't connect with the organization part of the brain. My husband would tell you that in my brain that organization part is smaller than most brains may have. If you are an organizer than seek out those of us that are creative and let us know you want to do something in the church you just don't have an idea of what you could help build our outreach. In that though don't forget who the author of the idea was and twist the idea completely so you can take glory in it as yours. Those of us creators don't like when the artwork we had in mind is skewed completely for the benefit of others. I think we have all been in a classroom when ours or our friend's artwork was defiled by someone in words or actions and know the hurt that causes. If you want to be a team member and get me the best colors or tools to finish the job that's really what I am looking for not someone to tear my idea down because it really was not my idea to being with God put it on my heart.
Sometimes in the church others are not willing to accept the new creative ways that bring growth of faith by stepping out and seeing things in a new way so like the fire helping new growth this is how a new idea can play out a new growth in faith and in how God wants you to look at the community outside of the church. If you are asked to step out in faith with something new look at what you may miss if you decline the movement God has put on others hearts.